Monday, April 11, 2011

On April

One of my favorite things about a blog is looking back five years ago to see where I was and what I was doing. So much has happened recently, and I will try my best to cover all of it.

This blog was started on August 12, 2002 with the following post:

I found two post office notices stuck to the mail organizer today. I have one Express Mail large envelope, and one tube. From who? Who would express mail me something? Just one of the great mysteries of the universe I guess...

This was a little over ten weeks after my high school graduation. I was fully immersed in my typical "ho hum, I wonder what I'll do next year..." Which tends to be my attitude towards many things. I figure if I don't get around to it now, I'll just do it next year. The tube, by the way, happened to be a poster from my now Alma Mater. I don't remember what the express mail was.

I'm sorry, Mary. I don't want to live here anymore. I want to go home. I want to go far away. Is it wrong to be ashamed of him? No, it's okay. It's not wrong. I'm so sorry. I don't feel like doing anything anymore. You know how much I love working and everything. I don't want to anymore. I don't know what to do.

In April of 2003, I posted on what has become a very significant memory for me. My brother was kind of a fuck up for many years. It caused a lot of turmoil in my family and broke my mother's heart more times than I can count. We all break out mother's hearts one way or another I suppose.... I got home from work, and my mother was very upset and depressed. Reading the words now, I know that I have said them with tears streaming down my face. That feeling of not wanting to do any of it. That feeling of wanting everything to be okay again. I felt like I couldn't talk about that event to anyone, and back then, my blog was very private. So I spilled my soul to the blog. I did not feel that I was capable of dealing with the events around me. So, I wrote.

Mwahahaha! I have hacked into MARY COMMENTARY!!!!!!!!!! No, only joking, I'm doing the so-called girl wonder a favor. :-) Go see my diary at Selfish self promotion [hehe] never hurt no body.
Now, go down to the closest honky-tonk and do the boot-scootin' boogie!
Love, LadyTiffanyAnne

In April of 2004, I was in the throes of dating. I was seeing both Disappearing Jake (and his friend Rob, apparently, who I don't remember) and Miguel. I was flirting with Jeff. I was spending an exorbitant amount of time with my neighbor Patrick. Whom I loved dearly, as a most wonderful friend. I'm not specifying any particular post in this month because, funny enough, the entire month is about different men. I was known at this time as Girl Wonder.

04) Five songs I listen to a lot or that mean a lot to me:
1) Ice Cream, it's one of Jeff and my songs
2) Come What May, it's our other song
3) "Collied" by Howie Day - collide is my favorite word
4) Super Orgy Porno Party. It's really funny.
5) Remember by damien rice, it's awesome

In April of 2005, the only blog post is a survey, but it tells you so much. I was in love with Jeff. Moses had not yet left. I had purple hair. I had a weird crush on a professor. Not quite a real crush. We called some of them "intellectual crushes" but I also wanted to get to know him. Somehow that translated in my muddled brain as a crush.

From April of 2005 to July of 2006, I didn't write anything. At this time I was working at Sushi Wasabi (now Murasaki). I was drinking lots of alcohol, and enjoying weekly tea with my twin. I was failing classes, living with Jeff and having a blast. I wish I had saved some money from then, but it was, on the whole, a great experience.

In April of 2007, I was feeling uncomfortable in my own skin. I was feeling worn around the edges and more than a little sad. I had just broken it off with Jeff for the first time and I remember listening to Cable Car and bawling my eyes out after that first time. That was a long and drawn out break up. I was already starting to fall for K-Swiss. I didn't write about that in my blog, because I didn't want Jeff to read it.

April of 2008 was an incredibly random month, with lots of photo spamming. Most of the photos from this month are old. There are many photos from K-Swiss's Christmas visit, which I waited until K-Swiss was 21 to post the photos. I posted photos from another time when my sister came for a visit and we had an adventure with my friends. I am still friends with everyone in those photos except Art. I remember that evening as being slightly magical.

In April of 2009, I went to DC with my friend Chris for an interview. (Beware, those are not good photos of me. They are not really supposed to be.) He was offered the job, but the pay was incredibly low. So, happily he and his wife remain in Charlotte. Oh and I got to day-trip to DC! It was a very fun, caffeine-fueled experience. Like all my trips to DC. Oh, and this was the month that I discovered that funding for Stats Camp had been pulled.

Last April was quite a slow month for blogging. Much like this month will be. I was in love with Temptalia (still am!) However, the post about Yahtzee stands out the most. It was really amusing. I won't describe it, just go read it. And then go check out some of Yahtzee's videos.


fraukuech said...

I'm incredibly jealous that you can do this. I've deleted all my old blogs and the accounts associated with them.

Stargirl said...

It makes me incredibly happy that I can do this. It also reminds me that I need to blog more, so I can look back at my life and what was happening. Like that 14 month or so gap. What happened then? Well, I stopped blogging when I left the Abbey, and started blogging again when I started back at Anderson University. I see a pattern here. So, we can rest assured that I'll start blogging with regularity once I start grad school.