Tuesday, February 27, 2007

I just want to tell all my readers that I'm posting a TON of stuff on my secret blog right now because it's not something I'm comfortable sharing yet. However, I will transfer it over in a couple weeks probably. I look forward to sharing this with my readers.

Something incredible and amazing is happening in my life. In addition to the amazing presence of God that I definitely feel in my life now, there is so much more to be thankful for and I cannot wait to share that with you. But for now, I can share just my faith life.

Since I've been back at Belmont Abbey College, my relationship with the Lord has improved 100 fold. It really has been amazing. I've never felt so close to the Lord, that I could just talk to Him and I pray so much now. It's amazing. It's something I've always wanted. I feel like I really have a real relationship with the Lord. When I pray, I don't pray specifically for what I want. I pray for His will to be done in my life and I pray that this might be His will. If it isn't I fully trust Him in everything and know that He will lead me down the right path.

It's incredible. I've never felt like this before!

It's pretty much amazing.

I definitely left the church for about 2-2.5 years. I'm unbelievably happy to be back.

I've broken up with Jeff because I've realized that 1) I definitely want to wait until I get married to have sex and 2) when I do get married, I really want to marry another catholic. I never realized how important this was. Then I thought about how when I was a child, my whole family would pray together every night. I don't want to cheat my child(ren) out of that. Anyway, I broke it off with him a while ago.

I go to daily mass. It's awesome. It's really one of the things that definitely helped me back. I first started going and it was kind of going through the motions and I didn't, of course, take communion because I hadn't yet confessed everything I'd done in the past 2.5 years. I mean, I hadn't even prayed in all this time, almost. I prayed recited prayers for a while because, while I really wanted a relationship with the Lord, I didn't know how to get there. I feel like if you really want it and you really try, He will help you and guide you back to Him. Oh, it's so amazing!


Anonymous said...

You and your sister are both very good people. I'm happy that you are going back to Church, there is nothing quite like finding the place in life that God wants you to be at.

Tiffany said...

I am delighted. I've been praying for you, as I's sure you know. I still am. 'Cause I love you. Can't wait to talk to you soon.

Anonymous said...

Very nice to see that last night qualifies as a while ago.