Thursday, August 14, 2003

I just found out that one of my really good friends is in the hospital with a hole in her chest. She stabbed herself. She tried to kill herself. I was supposed to call her last week. I really should've. I mean, I KNOW it's not my fault... I'm not trying to say that it is. You never know how much good a friend to talk with can be, though.

She's physically able to live. She regained consciousness... but the question is whether or not she will allow herself to. I really don't know what to do. I don't know how to deal with this.

It was over a guy. She said she loved him and he wasn't quite sure he felt the same way. It was tearing him apart, so she left to spare him the pain...

I need to tell her that it's worthless to waste yourself over a guy. I want to tell her she's being selfish... running from the pain, running from life. The girl I knew never ran from a damn thing.

I just don't know what to tell her. I don't know how to deal with this. Does anybody, really? No.

I just have to see her....

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