Friday, May 09, 2003

I just wrote this e-mail to Chris, but I'm not going to send it, I decided. He doesn't want to talk to me. He keeps blocking me on IM...

I am terribly sorry for everything. I shouldn't've said that because we had a decent attempt at friendship going on. Why do you keep blocking me though? I said I'm sorry, and I really really am. I guess that I will try and understand if you don't want to talk to me anymore. It's safer that way, yea?

Well, if nothing else, tell me how you were able to get over someone whom you "loved dearly" so quickly... because I am having trouble with that and I need some help.

Oh yes, dear, and tell "joe" that I said hey.

I really am sorry, but I can't tell you that I just want to be friends again, because I don't. Don't mistake my words like you did last time. And honestly if given the chance, I wouldn't go back out with you because I can't see the promise in the future if you really don't like me... Sure, I'd like to be just friends, but I really really can't. Not now at least.

Sorry for everything... if you can just tell me how to forget about everything that happened, that would be great. You must have discovered some great cure for a ..."broken heart"...

Gosh, I know I know that you don't want to hear any of this, but I just have to say it, because I'm hoping that maybe, just maybe, this will bring me closure....

But anyway, I told you I was crazy... Didn't I?

God's Peace

"Strive eagerly for the greatest spiritual gifts. But I shall show you a still more excellent way."
1 Cor 12:31

Sarcastic in some points and just heartbroken in most. I really am crazy, aren't I?

Because I miss him like crazy. I don't know why... I felt like I was over him for a long time and it just turns up all over again.

"I'd take the wheel and drive, but I have no where to go and no one to lead me"

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